Fried Eggs!

Well I feel like I haven't done one of these things in a long time. I'd like to say I was busy but that would be too easy. No I've been LAZY! Like always, but more often now.

So what brought me back?
Nothing in particular, just didn't want my fans to think I'd died. I HAVEN'T THANKS FOR ASKING!
Sheesh.

This post was really random!
Any ways I'll try and blog more often now that I'm off school and stuff. And I bet we'll be meeting before the year ends.

Hate As Always!

30/04/11 - THE MORNING AFTER

HEY LOOK HERE SHE IS AGAIN
AND SHE DOESN'T LOOK HAPPY!

Damn right I'm not happy.
So much so I'm typing properly!
Depression is GREAT especially
if you're ME.

I'm sad, real sad SUPER SAD
ready to get rid of all vilans
by depressing them and making them
take their own lives. (DON'T WORRY I'M NOT SUICIDAL)

Don't you just love talking about your
feelings? Especially when you're ME
because you don't have a physical way
of getting rid of your ANGRE & HATE

For those of you who don't know me 100%
(EVERYBODY) I'm not good with saying words.
Telling jokes...? Yeah but that's different
I find it hard to say what I'm really feeling
at the time. I'd rather write it down, or not
talk about it at all and read a book. Either
way people ALWAYS want to know what
I THINK or how I'm FEELING, and like I said
before I'm not GREAT with the words.

Damn it!

Y: Are you alright?
M: Yeah *smiles- even though on the inside I
want to tell you how I'm really feeling but
struggle to find a way to say it*

I fear I may have a serious problem!

*sigh

im telling ya
if i was out spoken not shy and non afraid to do anything...


id be single right now

and also alot less smarter
singing my heart out about the pain of never HAVING MY OWN WAY

now taht ive gotten that off my chest

WOOHOO NO MORE SCHOOL! yay(!) yes(!)

Shoes!

FFS
just like lemons my mood is sour

im still peeved that my mum will still run to me to do all the house work and not ask my brother! she lets that little shit get away with EVERYTHING!!

i really should be in a good mood ive got pretty much what i wanted this month but its turning out to be real shit. i have this feeling im going to be a grumpy granny when im older.

theres no word i can shout out loud to make me feel slightly better. i have to punch someone in the face.

WITH MY FIST IN YOUR FACE
AND YOUR FACE ON THE FLOOR

SHUT UP IM SORRY FOR BEING GRUMPY AGAIN! IM NOT A VERY HAPPY PERSON!


i wish i could go back to last month things would be SO MUCH different

fuck fuckety fuck fuck fuck!


SUCK IT MO-FO!

Fudge Monkeys!

it seems like anger and hate are my only friends right now!
my mum and brother always say that YOU GET AWAY WITH MURDER! if that were the case everybody in the world would be dead! YOU DONT DO ANYTHING TO HELP AROUND THE HOUSE bullshit i do more than my brother and hes in his 30 and still living with his mother!!


just seen the photos for the bday party my cousin had
i was there not that you'd know caz the photos i was in arent upoaded
every other pic is except the ones i was in
plus i had to give my balloons away that day *my highlight of the night*
THEN my mum told me YOULL GET NO WHERE IN LIFE BY JUST SITTING IN THE BACKGROUND!
i was happy until just a moment ago!!

she has no idea how much that hurt and how much trouble im having with typing because i can hardly see the keys due to the amont of tears in my eyes!!

if u dnt hear frm me in a while
im fine
i havent killed myself!!

TABN 102

did u know
that i like
being gifted
mugs?


the weirder they are the better
:)
youre not allowed to judge me

WHY OH WHY!

ive recently had BUBBLE GUM FLAVOURED ICE CREAM
and im just wondering
what does bubble gum flavoured bubble gum taste like?

ICE CREAM?!

NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!

ok for those peiple who know me
which is no one
you'd know that im taking English A-Levels next year.
so last week i ordered the books well be reading from amazon.
they arrived today!

HOWEVER
instead of them sending me Birdsong by sebastian faulks they sent me...

ONE HUNDRED WAYS FOR
A CAT TO FIND ITS INNER KITTEN

I DONT HAVE nor do i ever want A PET CAT!
NOT SINCE THAT MILK ADVERT!!
now i cannot read that book! theyve even put a sticker on the back of it telling me that it IS INFACT BIRDSONG! i think i can read after all i was the one who ordered the book!! Grrrrrrrr

Letters to God

Dear God if you exist and everything that happens happens for a reason...

why do we sometimes bite the insides of our own mouths?

TABN 101

did u know that once i ate gum and ham at the same time and the gum went all hammy like, and i swallowed it :)

Errrrr...

when other people are depressed others are rolling in happiness,
its just the circle of life.
well not really a circle but a line with two points.
but not like football
if it was football id be on happiness but both sides would be drawing
but we'd be happier

i dnt have anything
else to say really

wahay tis 100 blogs
i should be happier but nothing will make me happier right about now - well thats a lie.
but i aint tellin u why


HAPPY
HAPPY
HAPPY

happy days are here again!!

Just goes to show

if you look at my recent mock results
it wood look like i didnt give a stuff
but thats not the case
i actually studied
no matter what that piece of paper
says I DID REVISE!

so in the complete OPPOSITE
of antonia style i started revising today
it didnt do much good as the questions
i were answering started questioning
me
'blah blah blah give us a reason and explain why'
LIKE I BLOODY KNOW
i didnt write the damnd paper
if i did it wouldnt be for science
and if it was then the questions would be simple like
1- what colour is the sun?
2- the sky is not blue its white as it reflects the...?
3-what is your name?
4- if my name is antonia, what is my name?
5- johns mum had 3 sons snap, crackle and?
6- is this a science related question?
and other fun questions like that
where the answer to all of them would be
WHO GIVES A BIG FAT RATS ASS?
because i dont
and neither should you

so shut up
and let me
continue
this
POINTLESS
revision im 'doing' <--- not revision just complaning about the crap wording :) have fun revising and if youre not I HATE YOU!

nuff love!

Resolve yourself

years ago i wrote a blog about new years resolutions and that no one keeps them. so i made a new MONTHS resolution.

im gonna do that again but in stead of having 1-1month resolution im going to have 12-1month resolutions. meaning for every month of the year i will have a different resolution to keep up.

it will be fun and it will also suck when the time comes for me to stop swearing and being violent as it is like a second language to swear for me and being violent is just my nature.

i wont tell you what they are. you just have to know there are 12 and they are quite simple to complete so theres no point in boring you with boring information.

HOWEVER...!

ok so there is no 'however' i just done wanna stop typing just yet.

ohh yhh smth happened 4 days ago but i dont remember what it is. all i remember it was a big occasion and lots of people celebrate it, i think its the earths birthday

LAME!? i know :) and i dont care

MERRY NEW YEAR

it wont be happy as

1. VAT has gone up by 2.5% to 20%

2. ema is gonna be scrapped

3. uni charges are gonna be increased

4. i still havent gotten a job which sucks

5. all of the above

:(

**NOTE TO SELF**

learn to end your blogs on a low. but not so low that it depresses people

find a way to write humor instead of saying it to yourself like an idiot!

nuff love